Something snapped,
Something broke,
A long and arduous journey,
Step by Step
Moment by moment
Feelings of numbness
Persistence forgotten
Courage insistent despite death’s lure
Courage to continue
Courage to try
Courage to be present
Courage to be
despite numbness
despite emptiness
despite
stewing and sitting, sleeping and purging, searching and trying,
Broken open
trying not to harden
left with nothing more
And a seed remained
a seed that remembered courage
a seed stating to go on
a seed needing care and love
and even though it snapped
and even though it broke
something said “it’s time”
time to reinvent
to start a new beginning
to start a new me
to start a new everything
move toward a vision
despite the emptiness in me
trust in me
trust I can believe
trust I deserve to be a new me.
So without feeling,
without a stir,
I release all expectations and start this journey to be me.
Hoping to feel again,
Hoping to draw on persistence and tenacity
knowing they served in the past,
knowing they risk
loss and pain.
Release the fear
Try a new
Trust in the ability to create
despite the cycle of life.
despite the truth
Live to feel all it’s adventure, good and bad.
Time to create a new and stronger me.
In celebration of life
In Celebration of Truth.
In Celebration of My love.
In Celebration of loving ME
I’m setting myself free
Watch out, here I come.
