How do I fix the hole in my heart?
Some days hurt more than others.
Sometimes I even forget, for a moment…
And then, like a natural disaster, my world falls apart.
A sound, a smell, a song, a memory and I’m missing you.
Reality hits. Every piece of my puzzle is rocked to its core.
I’m just now a human shell,
Cold and empty
(an old poem I wrote years ago)
Do you ever feel like you’re fighting an unwinnable battle
Nothing you do will ever be right
Nothing you do will ever be good enough
Things will never pan out
You will never get what you want out of life
You can try with all of your heart
And all of your soul
But you are just not meant to succeed
You are not meant to be happy
The moments you experience
Only provided to tease you
To show you what you’re missing
To show you what you don’t deserve
To remind you what you’ll never truly have
(wrote this poem few years ago)