Beirut Explosion August 4, 2020

For some the Apocalypse isn’t a future possibility but a historical reality.

There are no words to describe what happened here on August 4, 2020. The blast in Beirut was staggering in magnitude, and I still can’t wrap my head around what happened. You think you’d get accustomed to tragedy but you never really do.  In an instant, hundreds of people died (many buried under the rubble), thousands injured hundreds of thousands were left without a roof over their heads, and scores of people are still missing. People lost their loved ones, their homes, their businesses in a blink of an eye.

What happened is much more horrible than most grotesque tale. Beirut is literally destroyed; streets are littered with debris. There’s not enough space to stand here and not enough oxygen to breath. We live in a country already suffering from all the possible nightmares: a brink of total unmitigated economic collapse, hyperinflation, collapse of national currency, skyrocketing unemployment, oligarchy corrupted warlords ruling for decades, pandemic and now our capital city is destroyed. We felt as if our hearts have been wiped off our bodies. Broke and broke beyond imagination in all parts.

My tears trickled as I watched ghastly images of Beirut, I kept replaying videos showing the explosion and kept asking myself “How could this happen?” Seeing death, crying children, adults running horribly feared, blood and destruction everywhere I broke down in tears along with my friends. We were grieving for all the lost lives, memories, for our broken nation and dreams, and for our unknown future. The surreal destruction of Beirut symbolized our downfalls.

Our hearts may have died that day, but we still have hope. Despite all the destruction I kept seeing unconditional love and sacrifices among the Lebanese.The people carrying children and running for shelter. The people wiping each other’s blood. The people comforting each other and holding each other. Those taking the wounded to the hospital. Those lining up to donate blood. Those who are helping cleaning debris and donating. The amount of love, and selflessness is overwhelming. We shall rise again; we shall show the world how to be unbroken.
Beirut, I love you ❤

Justice

Justice.
It’s such a brazen word, such a mouthful. Justice demands you to take it wholly inside yourself and grapple with it. It doesn’t get sidelined in a second or forgotten by the time it has been said, like peace or hope. It’s a heavy word, it doesn’t sit easy when uttered by one pair of lips and it needs more to join in. It doesn’t ask you whether you will be able to shout it. It has as much sway even when whispered.
Justice is such a brazen word, so much so the ones, who first decry it, are the last ones it reaches.

 

Life: Sugar and Salt

Everything has a reason of happening and a purpose. Sometimes we question too much and miss the whole point. Things might seem harsh at some times, but I guess sometimes we deserve it, for it to better us. Taking an example of salt and sugar, salt might be sour/bitter to your tongue when taken raw with nothing else. But the same salt added to something else, it gives it taste and it brings out the sweetness. Same with life, we might be having a salt experience and we think we’re unlucky, little do we know that the same experience makes us better. Just hanging on, and we’re on a different level altogether.

Sugar, on the other hand, is sweet. But the same sugar added to some other things makes it worse. Kill the taste.

Appreciate every moment. Because no matter how good or bad a situation is, it either makes us better for the right reason or otherwise.

Relationships Nowadays

Relationships have been replaced with “talking”. Which consist of pointlessly texting and a random phone call here and there. People text or “talk” merely to fill a void when they get bored. Commitment is a rare thing to find. Date nights really don’t exist much anymore. Chivalry is pretty much a thing of the past. There’s no more opening the car’s door for her or going to the front door to pick her up for a date. Today’s society cheating has been accepted way more than it should be and people classify it as a mistake. Since it is accepted more people continue to go back to the same person that has cheated on them repeatedly. (Albert Einstein defined insanity as doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results) Feelings don’t really matter anymore and it’s became a hurt someone before you get hurt kind of world. Cheating or crossing the line has become way too easy with social media. People don’t put in the effort that it takes to keep a relationship healthy or work. When things get tough people give up. Relationships have lost its value over the years and they aren’t how they are supposed to be anymore. To the girls that say there aren’t any good guys left in the world, maybe you should reevaluate the kind of guys you pursue. To the guys that can’t find a good girl, I can guarantee that you aren’t looking in the right places.

 

It Doesn’t Matter

Sometimes people allow their past hurts to keep them down, the he said, she said, he did, she did to stop you from progressing. But no one really stops you from being great, from having more, from being more other than yourself. Okay so that job didn’t work out, that friendship didn’t last, that marriage failed, but now what? What are you going to do in order to keep progressing in life? Never allow your past failures to be who you are now. They were obstacles that you overcame. As long as you allow your past to dictate your current and future situation you will always be stuck. Get out there and prove everyone wrong, get out there and make it happen, get out there and get your own. Don’t stay bitter and angry…don’t allow your past to control your happiness. Because while you are focused on the people who hurt you, guess what. ..they are LOVING life.

Something I could never have

Do you ever feel like you’re fighting an unwinnable battle
Nothing you do will ever be right
Nothing you do will ever be good enough
Things will never pan out
You will never get what you want out of life
You can try with all of your heart
And all of your soul
But you are just not meant to succeed
You are not meant to be happy
The moments you experience
Only provided to tease you
To show you what you’re missing
To show you what you don’t deserve
To remind you what you’ll never truly have

(wrote this poem few years ago)

Intimacy

Intimacy isn’t just about sex or physical contact

Intimacy is when you don’t need hands to touch somebody

Intimacy is about being vulnerable, not wearing a mask

Feeling safe as you strip your soul layers by layers

As you stand naked, showing him your true self, even the darkest parts

or the parts you hate the most about yourself

But despite that he will still look at you as

you are something authentic, unordinary and special

Love Expectations

I think expectations kill a lot of relationships, love shouldn’t come with a check list. Too

often people compare what they have to movies and their friends’ relationships. Taking

silly advice like, if he doesn’t hold your hair back when you throw up it’s not real or if

she doesn’t call you when she’s drunk out with her friends than it isn’t real. But love is

spontaneous, love is madness. You argue viciously but at the end of the day you don’t

want to see anyone else’s face but theirs. It’s not about waiting for your prince charming,

but going out to find your own happy ending. It’s not about the material things you could

bring to her. It’s something that just feels right something that isn’t forced. You could

have a complete checklist and still feel like somethings not right. It’s not supposed to be

perfect to everyone else, it’s supposed to be right just for you. If you should find yourself

unhappy then be fair to let one another know to save yourselves some time to recover,

give each other that closure too. Don’t settle for any less than you deserve, throw away

that checklist.

One Lovely Blog Award

A while four awesome bloggers: amanpan Annie, Vibrant and freespirit have nominated me for the one lovely blog award

And if you’re looking for something interesting this week, you should definitely check their blogs and you won’t be disappointed:

http://amanpan.com

https://whatthewomanwrote.wordpress.com

https://blabberwockying.wordpress.com

https://wannatalkavenscent.wordpress.com

The Rules

1. Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
2. List the rules and display the award.
3. Add 7 facts about yourself.
4. Nominate 10 – 15 bloggers for the award, and comment on one of their posts to let them know.

7 Facts about me

I find the simplest things fascinating and wish my eyes were a camera.

I don’t believe in destiny or fate. We control our future not some celestial force or being.

I have an obsession with chocolate and red wine

I’m very stubborn and won’t budge for anything in the world

I’m pretty much impulsive.

I keep a red notepad by my bed for my writings and scribbles

Sometimes I can watch horror films completely alone in the middle of the night with the lights out and the curtains drawn

I nominate:

Jules

amommasview

Kally

koolitzable

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