Feeling nothing is not natural. Not many are born
without joy or hatred. Emotions are not switches to be turned on and off
at one’s will. They are lenses of colored glass held up to the eye
through which the world
starkly contrasts itself.
When you get to the point where your emotions are all out of whack and you smile instead of cry, or just apologize because you can’t deal with losing anyone else, your world becomes filled with mixed emotions.
In this state, eyes are dull without feeling
and lips move to soundless words
because nothing has meaning.
Living life in a colorless world for a lost soul results in moving through each day trying to get through the day with great effort…but knowing you’re heading towards the nothingness ahead can be overbearing and can cause an unbearable feeling of being alone….Every situation is more intense and every situation involving loved ones, friends, and even your professional life can make it seem like all is lost when one thing goes wrong.
It’s hard living life, but each day you wake up…it has to be for a positive reason right??
I think expectations kill a lot of relationships, love shouldn’t come with a check list. Too
often people compare what they have to movies and their friends’ relationships. Taking
silly advice like, if he doesn’t hold your hair back when you throw up it’s not real or if
she doesn’t call you when she’s drunk out with her friends than it isn’t real. But love is
spontaneous, love is madness. You argue viciously but at the end of the day you don’t
want to see anyone else’s face but theirs. It’s not about waiting for your prince charming,
but going out to find your own happy ending. It’s not about the material things you could
bring to her. It’s something that just feels right something that isn’t forced. You could
have a complete checklist and still feel like somethings not right. It’s not supposed to be
perfect to everyone else, it’s supposed to be right just for you. If you should find yourself
unhappy then be fair to let one another know to save yourselves some time to recover,
give each other that closure too. Don’t settle for any less than you deserve, throw away