How do I?

How do I fix the hole in my heart?

 Some days hurt more than others.

 Sometimes I even forget, for a moment…

 And then, like a natural disaster, my world falls apart.

 A sound, a smell, a song, a memory and I’m missing you.

 Reality hits. Every piece of my puzzle is rocked to its core.

I’m just now a human shell,

Cold and empty

(an old poem I wrote years ago)

 

 

I’m Like a Butterfly

To love me is like catching a butterfly

That is always able of flying and escaping

You can’t cage me

Or own me or have me

I always fly

I always leave

Some People

Some people amaze me, Some people disgust me, some people worry me, some people like me, some people love me, some people aren’t worth trusting, some people I give too much trust to, some people talk about me, some people defend me, some people love with all their heart, some people still don’t know how to love, some people care too much about material things, some people will always chase something they will never catch, some people have their priorities mixed up, some people don’t even have priorities, some people care, some people don’t, some people dream, some people are jealous of other people, some people lie, some people tell half the truth, some people are true to their self, some people forget about where they came from, some people appreciate the little things, some people have everything and still can’t be happy, some people are nice, some people are rude, some people bully other people, some people smile all the time. And I sit here thanking my lucky stars for allowing me to know some people!

 

Dear Ex

Dear Ex,

You were my heroin, but I recovered and I intend to stay clean. I’ve changed so much, I came such a long way that I can’t imagine going back. And like a recovering addict I will miss you, but I will never want you.

I woke up today and realized my heart didn’t flutter when I saw your picture. You’ve become that guy from Gotye song that was all over the radio a couple years ago

Thanks for the toxic love and wasted time

Sincerely,

The girl who no longer cares

“she smiled to herself while writing this letter, yesterday is a million miles away, and forever ended yesterday

Ashes

She’s the woman standing on the ashes

Of love they used to share

He will always be that one person she loves the most

She just can’t forget or exile him out of her heart

She still have this delusional dream that

One day they will be together

Trust

I don’t trust most people. No matter how long we may have known each other. We could have known each other all my life, but my trust may not be with you at all. Never confuse time with loyalty; just because you have been around, don’t mean you have BEEN there. I always sit back and observe every person in my life, whether we talk everyday or not. I know who motivates me and keep it 100%. I also know who I can’t trust and who I need to keep distance with, whether I say anything or let you be fake.

Please make sure that trust is the last thing you handout. It’s the most important, and the most fragile and the easiest thing to break. Don’t trust someone because you love them or because they are blood relatives; trust them because they earn it. Trust isn’t complementary, it is not free toy in a bag you don’t give it away because it seems right.

 

I Feel You

There isn’t a day I don’t think about you,

There isn’t a moment I don’t wonder what you’re doing,

How you’re feeling or thinking

I feel you in every sweet love song

I feel you in every word I write in my poetry

I feel you in every sunset and gust of wind

Afraid

I’m feeling afraid

That if I started loving you

I will never stop

After all I dream

Of love that even

Time will lie down

And be still for

Ain’t it funny

Ain’t  it funny

That you can know someone for years

You go out with them every night

Chit chat about this and that

And tellinf few lame jokes

But despite all these years

Do they know you, the real you?

And at the same time, you can meet a total stranger only for one time

And yet this meeting may linger with you forever

That one person

Nothing beats finding that one person that you just feel comfortable enough to not have to say anything around. That one person you never have to explain yourself to, that one individual that can travel down the rabbit hole of what it is to be you, and yet they never fear what they will find in you. That one person that feels your heartbeat from a foot away & knows what you need before you even know you need it.