When looking back to all these years, I felt like I was treading through treacle. I have laughed, smiled, cried and winced as I tripped down memory lane. I felt like I was standing in a large cine theater watching someone else’ life, yet, it was mine. What have I learned throughout this lengthy process? I have learned that I finally like me just as I am. You see as I flipped through the photos of my life I saw I had never been to me I was only a shadow of the woman I am created to be. I also saw over recent years I have filled the hurt and voids with so many unnecessary things, which left me constantly feeling overwhelmed. As I let go, the tears may have flowed but a simple truth remained the things most precious to me are not mere things but my family and friendships and these cannot be stored or collected but require daily connection and appreciation. The clutter will never replace our basic human need to be valued and appreciated and share the love we came to earth with. I feel much lighter and more focused on loving those I am blessed to have in my life.
It is important, to tell the truth to yourself first before speaking it to someone else. Often it is easier to see something in someone else and not realize that you are that as well. So, first look at yourself and speak the truth to yourself before you speak it to another. When you speak the truth to yourself, it cuts like a knife; it hurts because you are seeing the truth of yourself, and sometimes it is not so pretty. You may even deny it. Everyone has the lowest opinion of themselves, and that is what they want to hide. Once you open that door of speaking truth with yourself, you discover the true ecstasy of being free, and you can see more clearly. Then when you look at someone else and speak the truth with them, it doesn’t include any attachments because you have cleared it in yourself first. That is where trust is, that place you have cleared yourself; and when you trust yourself, you can see another person clearly.